Watched a couple of minutes of John's memorial service (yes, we have the DVD), and I remembered that I had put the "launch John into space" fund on the back-burner. There's not really a hurry, per se. I figure that we can set aside some time in December to do something illogical with him, and take care of the satellite paperwork.
My closet is filled with stuff--I've been doing Christmas and birthday shopping for people, it's kind of a hobby. I felt so uncomfortable handling his box--all little white bottles marked with his name--that I just put them on the top shelf for a while. About once a month I forget what's in the box and give myself a shock. I guess I'll keep one of the bottles...it feels morbid, but I'm sure I'd regret letting go of them all.
Aaanyway...enough of that grief vortex, for today. More practically, John's memorial fund is sitting at $350. That's a few people's gifts, and it doesn't include myself and Butterfly (we haven't decided how much we're going to give, but between us and John's own funds, which his mother earmarked for this, it'll be "...and the rest.") If any of you want to contribute to the memorial, please drop me a private note at jvw @ io.com and we'll work out the details. I know a lot of people had said this was important to them, but then I quietly dropped out of communication on that. But it's been a few months, things at the house are a bit more stable, and maybe it's time to start working on that.