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Dark dreams last night. The one about being a Jew in the initial phases of the Holocaust was scary enough, but the "wake me up at six" one was very dark.

I was some sort of medium or necromancer, with some limited ability to see and talk to the dead--usually in the few moments before they discorporated to whatever afterlife waited for them.

Part of the backdrop of this dream was that I was sick, possibly cancer.

There was a lot of stuff--the dream took place at the university, so there was a lot of sitting at lectures and stuff, but it wrapped up with me walking to my car, when I realized I was already in the car. It's never a good thing when you can see yourself. That's a good sign that death is eminent. So I ran a little faster. My physical self was in the car dying, and my heart stopped while I was booking it down to the car, at the same time as the car's engine shut down.

I knew I didn't have much time and could feel myself starting to evaporate. I had just a few moments left when Whines came over the hill to get down to the car (in RL, we've been sharing cars a lot lately). This left me with about 30 seconds to try to wrap up everything I wanted to say to him before I faded away.

*shudder* Woke up crying.


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Feb. 28th, 2006 08:20 am (UTC)
what have you been reading lately? aside from spam.
Feb. 28th, 2006 08:34 am (UTC)
Mostly the D&D Warrior's Handbook. I really don't know where this one came from.
Feb. 28th, 2006 10:31 am (UTC)
Eee, scary. :/ Poor spottyspots *hug*
Feb. 28th, 2006 11:26 am (UTC)
*hugs spotty*

I know a bad dream can spoil a whole day.
Feb. 28th, 2006 03:15 pm (UTC)
Did add a very strange pallor to the morning, made me wonder how that got into my head.
Feb. 28th, 2006 01:20 pm (UTC)
ugh. *hugs* The feeling will fade in time, that is the mercy of dreams. :)
Mar. 1st, 2006 02:40 pm (UTC)
Damn. Well, that beats my usual dreams of being trapped in a sinking car, drowning, and being made the Russian Minister of Finance, despite not knowing anything about finance, the Russian language, or administration in general.

See, the Russian President wanted a cabinet of incompetents in the cabinet so he could seize power. We ended up walking out of the first Poliburo meeting, the cabinet that is. Also, for some reason, I licked my tie, didn't shave, and had weird mad-scientist hair.

It was all very lucid.
Mar. 2nd, 2006 10:34 am (UTC)
Licked your tie? That's probably how we can achieve that cool "Dilbert" effect. Wow. Rather like the democratic house in Texas.
Mar. 2nd, 2006 06:28 am (UTC)
In one extreme view, one might say that we as homosexuals in america face something of an impending Holocaust, or at least the subconscious mind might easily draw that up as a metaphor for the sociopolitical clime in which we currently exist.

I'd be interested in what you SAID to the dead in the dream, but I would suspect that your powers as a medium somehow tie you to the cancer in your dream. Sort of you having a rapor with that which you are becoming.

The cancer, well, I think in this country, cancer is still seen largely as an inexplicable illness that attacks the body from within- something alien to our bodies that somehow is able to take root. In reality, Cancer is in us all the times. every moment of every day, cells mutate and grow cancerous, our body just hunts down and destroys those before they can metastasize. In a dream, i would take this to symbolize a change that you feel yourself undergoing- something which has been inside you all along, but kept down- repressed. Now, as it's burrowing undeniably to the surface, you feel the need to express certain things while you are still who you are at the moment- in your old voice, before the new voice awakens.

Or maybe you had a bad cheeto before you went to bed.

Mar. 2nd, 2006 10:35 am (UTC)
Well, *some* of it is probably tied into my habit of playing necromancers.
Mar. 2nd, 2006 10:45 am (UTC)
*squinty look* Possibly. ... maybe ...
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