I feel older and crotchettyer each year. Like every year is a spade of dirt in a hole marked "negativity", and I'm standing in it whilest digging it. This really needs to change, somehow, but I can't figure out how. I've got less patience and a sharper tongue than I ever have before. Some of that is situational depression and stress, but some of it is just a rut I've given myself permission to fall into. Must work on this, "unpleasant" is never an adjective I'd want used against me.